The Hidden Journal

The Reason It Exists

This is my safe haven — my inner world.

A place to explore my mind, heart and soul.

A place for me to bare it all out to you.

This space isn’t for performance or perfection.
It’s for the voice I usually keep tucked away — the one that doesn’t filter, doesn’t explain.
My hidden journal is where truth comes out quietly but completely.

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Some days it’ll be poetry.
Some days, confessions.
Sometimes, it’ll just be one sentence I needed to hear.

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If you’re here, maybe you’re hiding parts of yourself too.
Maybe you came to remember that what’s hidden can still be holy.

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With quiet love,
— Desiree

This isn’t a story about perfection.
It’s a story about returning —
again and again,
to softness,
to breath,
to the small, steady places
where peace still lives.

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There were nights when the dark felt endless,
when silence pressed against my ribs
and I mistook it for emptiness.
But even there,
something was listening.
Something was waiting —
not for me to be better,
but for me to be honest.

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Every piece of me that broke
became a doorway.
Every silence I once feared
became a room I could finally rest inside.
And every shadow that lingered
taught me how to hold the light
without trembling.

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This journal is not a record of who I was.
It’s a map of how I came back —
through stillness,
through forgiveness,
through the long, luminous ache of becoming.

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If you find yourself here,
reading these words,
you’re already on your way home.
You don’t need to hurry.
You don’t need to know the ending.

Just keep listening.
Keep softening.
Keep walking toward the light that waits for you —
because it does.

Always.

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— Desiree

It never chased me.
It never shouted my name through the dark.
It just stayed —
steady,
patient,
burning softly in the distance
like it knew I’d find my way back.

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I mistook its quiet for absence.
But it was always there —
waiting,
not watching,
trusting that even my wandering
was part of the return.

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The light that waited
never asked me to hurry.
It never held my mistakes against me.
It only kept glowing —
through every detour,
through every version of me
that forgot how to look up.

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And when I finally came home,
it didn’t flare in triumph.
It simply opened its arms of gold
and said,
I never left.

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That’s the thing about true light —
it doesn’t rescue you.
It remembers you.
It waits until you can bear its gentleness again.

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And when you do,
you realize:
it wasn’t the light that changed.
It was you —
finally ready to stand in it.

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— Desiree

Some of us don’t take the easy road back.
We wander.
We circle.
We get lost on purpose
just to see if someone will come looking.

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But no one else can walk us home.
It’s ours —
the long way,
the learning way,
the quiet path that keeps turning us toward ourselves.

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The long way home
teaches what shortcuts can’t —
how to rest in uncertainty,
how to listen when silence becomes language,
how to trust the map written in our own pulse.

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There were times I thought I’d missed it —
the turn, the timing, the chance.
But home doesn’t disappear.
It waits, patient as forgiveness,
knowing I’ll find it when I’m ready
to stop running from tenderness.

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Every detour had something to show me.
Every ache pointed back to truth.
And when I finally arrived,
I realized I’d been walking toward myself
the whole time.

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The long way home
isn’t about distance.
It’s about depth.
And maybe the slower we go,
the truer we arrive.

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— Desiree

I used to think growth meant leaving —
the old, the familiar, the version of me
that didn’t yet know better.

But the more I heal,
the more I realize
it’s all about returning.

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Returning to breath.
To softness.
To the part of me that never needed fixing,
only remembering.

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The art of returning
isn’t dramatic.
It’s small,
sacred,
repetitive.
It’s choosing to come back
each time I drift away —
not as punishment,
but as practice.

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I return when I rest.
When I forgive.
When I speak to myself kindly
instead of sharply.
When I trust the timing again.

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It’s never too late to come back home —
to this body,
this breath,
this moment.

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The art of returning
is really the art of love —
the willingness to begin again,
no matter how many times it takes.

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— Desiree

There isn’t just one arrival.
No single moment when I’m finally whole.
Becoming isn’t a destination —
it’s a season that keeps circling back,
each time softer,
each time truer.

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Some days it feels like growing.
Others, like shedding.
And maybe both are holy.

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The season of becoming
doesn’t ask for control.
It asks for trust —
that what falls away
was never meant to stay,
and what remains
is enough to begin again.

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It’s strange, this cycle.
How I can feel both tender and strong,
rooted and reaching,
breaking and blooming,
all at once.

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But that’s the beauty of it —
becoming doesn’t need to be graceful.
It just needs to be honest.

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And every time I think I’ve arrived,
I find another layer,
another voice,
another softness waiting to meet the light.

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Maybe that’s the point —
I’m not here to be finished.
I’m here to keep unfolding.

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— Desiree

Healing doesn’t end with a flourish.
It begins again —
slowly,
softly,
like petals opening to a light they’ve finally learned to trust.

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The slow bloom doesn’t rush.
It knows that roots come first,
that beauty means nothing
without depth.

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I’ve stopped trying to grow overnight.
Now I let the days unfold me
in their own rhythm —
a little more open,
a little more brave,
a little more here.

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The slow bloom teaches patience.
It whispers that not all progress can be seen,
that some of the most important changes
happen quietly beneath the surface.

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And when I finally notice the color returning,
it’s not dramatic.
It’s real.
It’s me,
becoming again,
without apology.

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— Desiree

They don’t announce themselves.
They just arrive —
quiet, steady,
folded between ordinary hours.

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The gentle days aren’t loud.
They don’t demand proof or progress.
They hum softly,
as if to say,
You’ve already done enough.

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These are the days I stop measuring.
Stop chasing meaning.
Stop mistaking stillness for stagnation.

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Here, healing hums like background music.
Here, peace feels less like an event
and more like weather —
something that drifts in and stays awhile.

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The gentle days teach me
that joy doesn’t need an audience.
That love doesn’t always come with fireworks.
That being alive
can be quiet
and still feel full.

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I used to crave intensity.
Now I crave this —
the way soft things last.

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— Desiree

It’s quiet in a different way now.
Not the silence of breaking —
but the hush that follows mending.

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The morning after healing
doesn’t feel like victory.
It feels like calm.
Like breathing without remembering how.

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The light falls gently,
and I notice it —
not because it’s brighter,
but because I am.

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There’s no rush to declare I’m new.
No need to prove I’ve changed.
I just move slower,
softer,
as if the world has become more fragile
and I’ve learned how to hold it without hurting it.

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The morning after healing
isn’t the end of the story.
It’s the first page written
without pain guiding the pen.

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I drink water.
I open windows.
I say thank you
to no one in particular.
And for the first time in a long while,
that feels like prayer.

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— Desiree

It doesn’t burst in.
It creeps softly through the cracks —
a quiet visitor
that finds me still breathing,
still here.

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The light doesn’t ask where I’ve been.
It just begins again,
touching the places that once hurt to look at,
reminding me that nothing stays gone forever.

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When the light returns,
it doesn’t erase the night —
it carries it.
It folds the dark into its brightness,
makes it shimmer.
And I see it clearly now —
the two were never enemies,
just different ways of seeing.

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This is how morning speaks:
not in triumph,
but in forgiveness.
Not in noise,
but in warmth.
Not as a rescue,
but as a reminder.

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When the light returns,
so do I —
not as who I was,
but as someone who knows
how to find herself
even in the dark.

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— Desiree