The Hidden Journal

Every ending leaves a door behind.
Some I close softly,
others I leave cracked open —
a quiet promise to myself
that not everything has to be final.

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I used to fear doorways.
The crossing.
The in-between.
That fragile moment when one world fades
and another hasn’t yet formed.

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But now, I move slower.
I pause at thresholds.
I let my hand rest on the frame
and whisper gratitude for where I’ve been,
even if I never walk back through.

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Doorways ask for faith —
not in the room ahead,
but in the fact that you can walk through it
and still belong to yourself.

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I don’t need to know where each door leads anymore.
It’s enough to know I’m the one who gets to turn the handle.

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— Desiree

Not every part of life happens in a room.
Some of it happens in the hallways —
the narrow, echoing places between what was and what’s next.

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These are the spaces without furniture,
without certainty.
Just me and the sound of my own steps,
moving through what used to fit,
toward what I haven’t built yet.

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The hallways between are where I’ve learned patience —
how to breathe when the door behind me has closed,
but the next one hasn’t opened yet.

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It’s quiet here,
but not empty.
Every step has its own small courage.
Every echo means I’m still walking.

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Maybe the hallways are where growth really happens —
not in the rooms of comfort or arrival,
but in the steady in-between,
where I learn to trust
that every closed door is a beginning in disguise.

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— Desiree

Some rooms still hold echoes.
Not ghosts,
just the quiet residue of love and living.

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There are corners where laughter lingers,
and shelves where old prayers still hum softly.
Even the air seems to know
who once stood here.

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I used to fear those memories —
afraid that looking back
meant I hadn’t moved on.
But now I know remembering
is its own kind of grace.

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Every mark, every dent, every sound
belongs to the story of this house.
They don’t haunt me anymore.
They remind me that I’ve lived.

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Not all rooms are meant to stay quiet.
Some sing in whispers.
Some sigh when the light shifts.
And some,
some just rest in peace
with what they’ve held.

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— Desiree

Some people arrive like sunlight —
bright, warm,
filling every corner before you even know their name.

Others come quietly,
soft as rain,
changing you without trying to.

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Not everyone who enters is meant to stay.
Some just pass through —
a whisper, a lesson,
a reflection of what you were ready to see.

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I used to lock every door after someone left,
afraid of the echo they’d leave behind.
But now I know:
the emptiness after love
is just space being cleared for what’s next.

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Some visitors stay as memory.
Some stay as peace.
A few become part of the walls themselves —
woven into who I am,
without needing to be seen again.

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I don’t rush them anymore —
the arrivals, the goodbyes,
the quiet in between.
They’re all part of how this house breathes.

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— Desiree

Some days I feel complete.
Other days, I can still hear the hammering —
quiet, persistent,
somewhere deep in the walls of me.

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I’ve built this house slowly,
room by room,
out of moments I once wanted to forget.
Each scar became a brick.
Each breath, a window.
Each goodbye, a door that taught me how to open again.

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There’s no blueprint for becoming.
I’m learning as I go —
how to make space without collapsing,
how to decorate with grace instead of guilt.

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The foundation isn’t perfect,
but it holds.
And that’s more than I could say before.

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I don’t need to finish this house to live in it.
I just need to keep sweeping the dust,
lighting candles in the dark corners,
and leaving the front door cracked
for whoever love sends next —
including myself.

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— Desiree

There are days I feel transparent —
like you could see right through me
if you only looked closely enough.

But I’ve stopped fearing that.
I’ve learned that glass isn’t weakness.
It’s what lets the light in.

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The windows of me have seen so many seasons —
frost, rain, the slow fog of doubt,
the sudden flare of sunrise.
And still, they stand.
Still, they shine when the light touches them just right.

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I used to close the curtains on myself —
afraid of being seen,
afraid of being misunderstood.
But now I know transparency isn’t exposure.
It’s clarity.

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I’m not made to be impenetrable.
I’m made to reflect what’s beautiful
and let the rest pass through.

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The windows of me aren’t spotless.
They’re streaked with memory,
with living.
But they glow anyway —
and maybe that’s what makes them holy.

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— Desiree

I don’t leave every door unlocked anymore.
Not everyone deserves to walk through me.
But I’ve stopped sealing every room shut, too.

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Some parts of me are meant to stay open —
the ones that hold light,
the ones that breathe,
the ones that remind me I’m still becoming.

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It’s taken time to know the difference
between protection and fear.
Between peace and avoidance.
Between solitude and silence that aches.

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Now, I keep certain rooms open on purpose.
The ones where laughter echoes.
Where forgiveness sits quietly in a chair by the window.
Where love, even when it leaves,
always finds its way back to the door.

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Not every space in me is perfect.
But the open ones —
they’re alive.
And that’s enough.

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— Desiree

Letting light in sounds easy,
but it isn’t.
It asks for softness —
for walls to lower,
for defenses built in darkness
to loosen their grip.

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For a long time, I thought healing meant chasing the sun.
Running toward brightness,
proving I could stay there.
But real light doesn’t demand pursuit.
It asks for presence.

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To let it in,
you have to stand still.
You have to believe you’re worthy of warmth,
even when you’re not glowing.

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Light doesn’t care about perfection.
It just needs an opening —
a crack,
a breath,
a moment of surrender.

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This is the art of it —
learning not to chase what was always coming,
learning not to hide when it arrives.

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— Desiree

Grace doesn’t shout.
It moves like breath —
invisible, patient,
always arriving right when I’ve stopped reaching for it.

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I used to think grace was something I had to deserve,
that it lived in the distance between who I was
and who I wanted to become.
But now I know —
it lives in the pause between mistakes,
in the soft forgiveness that follows truth.

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The sound of grace isn’t music you can play.
It’s quieter —
the silence after release,
the heartbeat steadying,
the whisper that says,
You’re still worthy.

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It finds me when I least expect it —
in the middle of ordinary days,
in the way I let someone love me without shrinking,
in the way I meet myself
with less fear each time.

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Grace has its own rhythm.
I just had to learn how to listen.

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— Desiree

It always comes when I stop looking.
Not as a sign or a miracle,
but as something smaller —
a breath, a pause,
a reminder that I never really lost it.

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The light doesn’t rush.
It waits until I’m still enough to notice.
Until I’m done trying to earn it.
Until my shoulders drop
and my heart remembers how to open.

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Some days it shows up as laughter.
Some days, it’s just the absence of ache.
But it’s always gentle.
Never forced.
Never loud.

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When the light finds me,
it doesn’t ask where I’ve been.
It just says, You made it.
And somehow, that’s enough.

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— Desiree