The Hidden Journal

There’s a vastness inside me I used to be afraid of.
I mistook it for emptiness —
a hollow echo I didn’t know how to fill.

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But now I see it differently.
It isn’t a void.
It’s space — a place where new things can breathe.

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The sky inside me holds storms and sunsets alike.
It doesn’t pick favorites.
It just expands to hold them all.

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I used to chase freedom in other people,
in faraway places,
in futures that shimmered just beyond reach.
But freedom was never out there.
It was the quiet permission
to take up space in my own skin.

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I carry so many skies now —
grief, joy, memory, mercy —
and somehow they all fit.
Maybe that’s what healing really is:
learning to stretch without breaking.

— Desiree

I used to think healing meant movement —
forward, upward, anywhere but here.
But peace has its own direction.
Sometimes it asks you to stop running.

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Staying used to feel like surrender.
Now it feels like trust.
Trust that the ground won’t collapse.
Trust that I can hold what comes without breaking.

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I’ve spent years trying to become.
But maybe staying
isn’t the opposite of growth —
maybe it’s the moment you finally meet yourself.

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The world tells me to keep going.
But my body, my breath,
they whisper, Stay.
Stay long enough to see what doesn’t need fixing.
Stay until peace stops feeling unfamiliar.

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This is where the healing settles —
not in the next chapter,
but in the moment I stop turning the page.

— Desiree

There’s a weight that keeps me grounded,
and it isn’t pain anymore.
It’s truth.
It’s presence.
It’s the knowing that I don’t need to rise above my life to live it fully.

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For so long I chased lightness —
to float, to escape, to transcend.
But I’ve learned that real peace doesn’t lift me up —
it holds me here.

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Gravity is gentle when you stop fighting it.
It teaches you how to belong to the earth again,
how to let your heart settle
without shrinking your sky.

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This is my balance now —
feet in the soil,
head in the stars,
body in between.
Alive.

— Desiree

Not every closeness needs to close the gap.
Some love breathes best with space in it.

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There’s a tenderness in distance —
a quiet trust that says,
You don’t have to disappear to be near me.

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I used to think intimacy meant merging,
losing myself in someone else’s rhythm.
But now I know the real beauty
is in the balance —
in the dance of two souls
who can meet without erasing each other.

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The space between us isn’t emptiness.
It’s possibility.
It’s the air where understanding grows,
the pause that keeps us human,
the breath between my truth and yours.

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When we stop trying to fill every silence,
we finally hear what love sounds like —
not a rush,
but a pulse.
Not a grip,
but gravity.

— Desiree

Not every truth needs to be spoken.
Some are felt —
quietly, completely,
in the way skin meets skin,
or how stillness fills the space between two breaths.

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Touch speaks in a language older than words.
It doesn’t ask.
It remembers.

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A hand on the back,
a slow exhale,
a pause that says stay.
All of it means I see you
without needing to explain how.

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I used to chase understanding —
to be known in detail,
to be described perfectly.
But now I think love is simpler than that.
It’s the warmth that lingers after goodbye.
It’s the pulse that steadies when someone’s near.

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Some connections don’t need clarity.
They need presence —
a quiet “I’m here,”
spoken in the body’s oldest tongue.

— Desiree

There’s a kind of healing that only happens in closeness.
Not through words,
but through weight —
the simple gravity of being cared for.

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To be held is to stop holding everything alone.
It’s to let someone else steady the ache
without asking you to explain it.

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Sometimes it’s a hand,
sometimes a presence,
sometimes just a silence that doesn’t try to fix you.
A reminder that your softness isn’t too much,
and your sadness isn’t a burden.

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Being held doesn’t erase the pain —
it just changes the shape of it.
It makes space inside the ache
for breath to return.

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And maybe that’s all we ever needed —
to know that we can fall apart
without disappearing.

— Desiree

I used to look for meaning in miracles —
something bright enough to make me believe again.
But the older I get,
the more I find it in smaller things.

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The sound of the kettle in the morning.
The warmth of sunlight on a clean floor.
The way my name sounds when spoken softly.
Little pieces of mercy
that don’t announce themselves,
but arrive anyway.

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This is the ordinary holy —
the quiet proof that life still wants me here.
Not as a performance,
but as a presence.

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There’s no ceremony to it.
No spotlight, no applause.
Just a slow return to myself,
again and again,
until the act of living
feels like prayer.

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— Desiree

Peace isn’t what I thought it would be.
It isn’t still or spotless.
It moves — slow and steady,
like breath after a long cry.

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For years, I imagined it as a finish line.
A destination waiting at the end of healing.
But peace isn’t a place.
It’s a rhythm.
A conversation between rest and resilience.

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Some days it hums like background music —
barely there, but holding everything together.
Other days it hides,
and I have to remind myself
that quiet doesn’t mean it’s gone.

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The shape of peace is uneven.
It bends around old scars,
it makes room for what still aches.
It doesn’t erase the past —
it softens its grip.

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I don’t chase calm anymore.
I build it —
slowly,
deliberately,
out of the moments that once broke me.

— Desiree

I forgot how to stand in light without flinching.
For a while, every brightness felt like a spotlight,
every warmth, a warning.
I didn’t trust what didn’t hurt.

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But healing has a way of softening the edges of fear.
Little by little, I’ve started to lean toward the glow —
the way flowers do
without asking if they deserve it.

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The sun doesn’t ask questions.
It just shines.
It lands on the broken and the blooming the same.
And somewhere in that sameness,
I started to breathe easier again.

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Joy isn’t loud for me yet.
It’s quiet —
a steady hum in the chest,
a warmth that doesn’t demand proof.

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I’m still learning how to hold it
without waiting for the next storm.
But maybe that’s the point —
to let the light touch me
even if I’m still trembling.

— Desiree

The sky doesn’t apologize for breaking open.
It rains, it rages, it empties —
and then, it clears.

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I used to fear that kind of release.
The crying, the chaos,
the parts of me that didn’t know how to stay composed.
But maybe storms aren’t destruction.
Maybe they’re cleansing.

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After the storm,
everything smells like beginning.
The air tastes clean,
the world feels softer around the edges.
Even my thoughts move slower,
like they’re afraid to disturb the peace that’s left behind.

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I walk differently now.
Not because I’ve changed completely,
but because I finally stopped running from the weather inside me.

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The calm after isn’t silence —
it’s understanding.
It’s gratitude.
It’s the sound of my own breath,
steady, unafraid,
ready to start again.

— Desiree